Whether you are trying for your 1st or your 5th, fertility issues are no less painful to deal with.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Cloth Diapering
So, my last post sparked some comments about cloth diapering, and I was instantly curious. I know a few people who do the cloth diapering thing, but in my head, when I thought about cloth diapering, I thought of folding those little white "burp rags," safety pins, ugly rubber pants, and a LOT of work. I've never even considered it. Sure, buying huggies and luvs was pricey, but they were easy. Well, after reading those comments about cloth diapering, I decided to google cloth diapers and see what came up. Really I was looking for a how to for folding them, cleaning them, etc... but what I found was really exciting!
Cloth diapering as come a long way from what I thought. What I discovered were all in one cloth diapers, one size that fits all, and they were WAY cute!! Here's some stuff that I found. The initial up front cost would be higher, but they are all guaranteed to last atleast 2 years, which is great.
Cloth diapering as come a long way from what I thought. What I discovered were all in one cloth diapers, one size that fits all, and they were WAY cute!! Here's some stuff that I found. The initial up front cost would be higher, but they are all guaranteed to last atleast 2 years, which is great.
These below are Bumkin diapers. They run from about $15 and up. Look at all the cute prints!
These are BABY AIO cloth diapers. I found them on ebay.com. There's a how-to video at the bottom of the ebay page. I love these! This particular lot has them going for $8 a diaper. That's a great price! Free shipping as well.
This one is a bumgenius cloth diaper. This one has a velcro closure and comes in many colors. Looks like they also start around $15 a diaper.
There is also "Baby Love" diapers:
Those are just a few different brands and styles of cloth diapers, to see more, just google cloth diapers. I don't know which type I will go with, I am thinking bumgenius? Let me know what your thoughts are and what type you would suggest! I am really excited about this! Also, if you do cloth diaper, how many would you suggest one to buy starting out?
Looks like washing them is pretty simple...some styles you just throw the diaper in the washing machine, some you remove a liner and wash, some you remove the padding and wash, but overall they aren't nearly has painstaking as I thought they were. I think during the summers I would even hang them outside to dry to be even more green!
PS If anyone wants to donate their cloth diaper for me to review it, I'd be happy to! LOL
These are BABY AIO cloth diapers. I found them on ebay.com. There's a how-to video at the bottom of the ebay page. I love these! This particular lot has them going for $8 a diaper. That's a great price! Free shipping as well.
This one is a bumgenius cloth diaper. This one has a velcro closure and comes in many colors. Looks like they also start around $15 a diaper.
There is also "Baby Love" diapers:
Those are just a few different brands and styles of cloth diapers, to see more, just google cloth diapers. I don't know which type I will go with, I am thinking bumgenius? Let me know what your thoughts are and what type you would suggest! I am really excited about this! Also, if you do cloth diaper, how many would you suggest one to buy starting out?
Looks like washing them is pretty simple...some styles you just throw the diaper in the washing machine, some you remove a liner and wash, some you remove the padding and wash, but overall they aren't nearly has painstaking as I thought they were. I think during the summers I would even hang them outside to dry to be even more green!
PS If anyone wants to donate their cloth diaper for me to review it, I'd be happy to! LOL
Monday, June 14, 2010
August
Every night this last week, I dreamed that I was pregnant. Literally. Every night. I have mixed feelings about these dreams, they are wonderful...while I am dreaming. In my dreams the financial worries are not there, so it is just a time of pure bliss. When I wake up, I'm bummed it was a dream, annoyed that I even had it because it does not make this not-trying thing any easier. But then again, I am glad it was just a dream, I really DO want to get things more stable before we add to our family.
Anyways, we've had our Sunday night talks every week now, and I kind of like having them. We go over our finances for the week which is nice, because I used to be the only one doing the finances and I would be really stressed when money got tight, and then when Spencer would find out how tight it was he would get mad at me for not telling him. This way we both work it out, come up with solutions, and it takes a LOT of stress off me when we work together as a team. Anyways, we discussed the baby thing again last night, and I told him my feelings on it. Every time I start to think about when we can try again, the month of August pops into my head. I feel that August gives us enough time to get this figured out, change our current situation, and that it would put a baby being born in a semester I don't have school. I told Spencer this, and he said it sounded like a good possibility and that we would consider it. I told him I feel like Heavenly Father has promised that once we get things squared away, and when it is the right time, I will have no trouble getting pregnant and keeping the pregnancy. I believe this without a doubt.
Anyways, we've had our Sunday night talks every week now, and I kind of like having them. We go over our finances for the week which is nice, because I used to be the only one doing the finances and I would be really stressed when money got tight, and then when Spencer would find out how tight it was he would get mad at me for not telling him. This way we both work it out, come up with solutions, and it takes a LOT of stress off me when we work together as a team. Anyways, we discussed the baby thing again last night, and I told him my feelings on it. Every time I start to think about when we can try again, the month of August pops into my head. I feel that August gives us enough time to get this figured out, change our current situation, and that it would put a baby being born in a semester I don't have school. I told Spencer this, and he said it sounded like a good possibility and that we would consider it. I told him I feel like Heavenly Father has promised that once we get things squared away, and when it is the right time, I will have no trouble getting pregnant and keeping the pregnancy. I believe this without a doubt.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Hello
Well, not much in the world of not TTC right now. Got the bill for my HSG, and my insurance DID cover part of it, which I didn't think they would! So, the damage was only $600...waay better than what I was expecting!
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Hello
Well, it's that time in the cycle when babies are made. Unfortunately no babies will be made this month. I haven't taken my temps all this cycle, or done and CM checking, but I am pretty sure today or tomorrow is O day. This makes me a little sad, there's a little voice in the back of my head whispering "But this could be the month!!" and I am trying my absolute hardest not to give in to it, and stick to our agreement to wait. It makes me very sad, and I feel like a ridiculous baby about it, but it's not fun having to wait for the thing that you want most. But like I said in the last post, I strongly believe that when we do decide it's the right time, we will have no trouble getting pregnant and keeping it. I just have to wait until then. I wish I had a fast forward button for my life. lol.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Try to find the silver lining.
I am a little bummed this morning. DH and I had a long conversation last night. We've dubbed Sunday nights to be our "discussion night" where we go over finances and the budget, and talk about anything else that we feel needs to be discussed. So we were looking over our quicken last night, and we became a little concerned.
DH works two jobs, and I am about to start school 3/4 time next week, plus we have a 2 year old. Our plates are pretty full. DH's second job has severely cut his hours (seriously, he's only worked 8 hours in the last two weeks) and we need him to be working the 20/week hours that he was promised in order to make ends meet. Needless to say, the outlook wasn't so great for the next few months, and while we would be ok, if we had to throw in more diapers into the budget, if for some reason I couldn't breastfeed again, we would have a hard time affording formula, and if for some reason our insurance didn't cover any of the cost (like with my son) we would be in a world of hurt.
So after a long discussion, lots of tears (on my end), some planning, and some prayer, we have decided not to have a baby at this point in time. I am devistated, but I am trying to find the silver lining. We still want one, and knowing it can only take a few months to get things situated again we aren't completely closing the door. We agreed that each Sunday when we go over our financial situation, we'll re-evaluate whether or not to try. That gives me a little hope that the door is not completely closed. It also motivates me to do all I can to fix things and make it so we can start trying again.
I went to bed last night a little angry. It just wasn't fair to me. Anytime we start making financial strides in the right direction, it feels like someone kicks us back down. We used to be very reckless with our money, but we've learned and are sooo much better with it, but yet it still feels like we are going nowhere. People get pregnant all the time when they can't afford the baby, and they turn to the government for help. I'm not saying that's wrong, but I just can't do that. It is an appealing idea to be able to do that, but maybe it's a pride issue, but I think other people need that more than us. I feel it is my responsibility to be able to provide for the children I bring into this world, because what if the gov't ceased to be?
So, yes, I went to bed angry last night. I think most of it was because I knew it was not a good time to have a baby, but yet I wanted it so badly I was refusing to see the long term perspective. I even said, and I am so ashamed to have said it, that "If God didn't want me to have a baby now, then he needs to stop making me feel like I should have one." I said it. I feel horrible, because that there is my problem. I am trying to pave my own path, when He already has one for me. I hate that it's not the time. I really do. So last night when I said my prayers, instead of asking for a healthy pregnancy, I asked to understand, and to have patience.
Though I am still upset about the decision, I feel that it is best. It is our job as parent to be financially responsible before bringing other life into the world. And I am not talking about being rich or anything, but able to meet the basic demands of having a family. I am ok with the decision. I know it is for the best, and I strongly feel like when it is the right time, I will have no problem getting and staying pregnant. It feels like something he's promised me.
There is a reason in all things, and I am starting to see that there is a lot I need to learn. This experience, these trials, they are for me right now, to teach me. So, I'm looking at the silver lining and I am going to grow from this. It will make me a better mom, wife and friend. I am facing these trials so that I can help someone in the future not endure them.
On a lighter note, I am a planner, and since I need something to plan, here is what I am going to take the time off from TTC to do:
1. Get fit. I WILL do the Jillian Michael's 30 Day shred. All 30 days.
2. Get my CNA license.
3. Change my diet. Reduce my meat intake, eat more veggies, and no soda. I am done!
4. MAYBE I'll go see a naturpath about a herbal regiment, but that's not a big issue right now.
5. Consider getting off my anti-depressants. I hate relying on a pill to feel good, but right now I am scared to get off them. I don't like myself off of them.
Sorry for the long novel post. It might be the last post in a while... I might blog about other things somewhat related to TTC, and keep you updated. So stay subscribed, that way you don't miss a thing!
DH works two jobs, and I am about to start school 3/4 time next week, plus we have a 2 year old. Our plates are pretty full. DH's second job has severely cut his hours (seriously, he's only worked 8 hours in the last two weeks) and we need him to be working the 20/week hours that he was promised in order to make ends meet. Needless to say, the outlook wasn't so great for the next few months, and while we would be ok, if we had to throw in more diapers into the budget, if for some reason I couldn't breastfeed again, we would have a hard time affording formula, and if for some reason our insurance didn't cover any of the cost (like with my son) we would be in a world of hurt.
So after a long discussion, lots of tears (on my end), some planning, and some prayer, we have decided not to have a baby at this point in time. I am devistated, but I am trying to find the silver lining. We still want one, and knowing it can only take a few months to get things situated again we aren't completely closing the door. We agreed that each Sunday when we go over our financial situation, we'll re-evaluate whether or not to try. That gives me a little hope that the door is not completely closed. It also motivates me to do all I can to fix things and make it so we can start trying again.
I went to bed last night a little angry. It just wasn't fair to me. Anytime we start making financial strides in the right direction, it feels like someone kicks us back down. We used to be very reckless with our money, but we've learned and are sooo much better with it, but yet it still feels like we are going nowhere. People get pregnant all the time when they can't afford the baby, and they turn to the government for help. I'm not saying that's wrong, but I just can't do that. It is an appealing idea to be able to do that, but maybe it's a pride issue, but I think other people need that more than us. I feel it is my responsibility to be able to provide for the children I bring into this world, because what if the gov't ceased to be?
So, yes, I went to bed angry last night. I think most of it was because I knew it was not a good time to have a baby, but yet I wanted it so badly I was refusing to see the long term perspective. I even said, and I am so ashamed to have said it, that "If God didn't want me to have a baby now, then he needs to stop making me feel like I should have one." I said it. I feel horrible, because that there is my problem. I am trying to pave my own path, when He already has one for me. I hate that it's not the time. I really do. So last night when I said my prayers, instead of asking for a healthy pregnancy, I asked to understand, and to have patience.
Though I am still upset about the decision, I feel that it is best. It is our job as parent to be financially responsible before bringing other life into the world. And I am not talking about being rich or anything, but able to meet the basic demands of having a family. I am ok with the decision. I know it is for the best, and I strongly feel like when it is the right time, I will have no problem getting and staying pregnant. It feels like something he's promised me.
There is a reason in all things, and I am starting to see that there is a lot I need to learn. This experience, these trials, they are for me right now, to teach me. So, I'm looking at the silver lining and I am going to grow from this. It will make me a better mom, wife and friend. I am facing these trials so that I can help someone in the future not endure them.
On a lighter note, I am a planner, and since I need something to plan, here is what I am going to take the time off from TTC to do:
1. Get fit. I WILL do the Jillian Michael's 30 Day shred. All 30 days.
2. Get my CNA license.
3. Change my diet. Reduce my meat intake, eat more veggies, and no soda. I am done!
4. MAYBE I'll go see a naturpath about a herbal regiment, but that's not a big issue right now.
5. Consider getting off my anti-depressants. I hate relying on a pill to feel good, but right now I am scared to get off them. I don't like myself off of them.
Sorry for the long novel post. It might be the last post in a while... I might blog about other things somewhat related to TTC, and keep you updated. So stay subscribed, that way you don't miss a thing!
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