6 weeks

Well, I have decided to blog about this pregnancy, but not post the blogs until after I announce the news to everyone. Tomorrow I will be 6 weeks pregant. It feels like I've known forever!! These first few weeks are creeping by and I am just dying for them to speed up a little. However, everyday seems like a little victory in itself, because it's another day that I've kept the pregnancy. I am still very paranoid every time I go to the bathroom that I'll find blood or that every cramp or pulling is a bad sign, but so far so good. I have been EXTREMELY tired with this one. Maybe the last two were too long ago, but I do not remember being this tired. True, I'm also in school and working weekends and have a crazy 2.5 year old, but I could literally sleep all day. Thats the only thing I could complain about though. I feel great, only a little nauseus every now and then, but overall I feel the same just sleepy!

I've told a few people about the pregnancy, mainly to keep my sanity in tact from not being able to tell people about it. DH didn't know I told my mom about it, and the other day I was skyping her and we were talking about it and he came running into the room with this look on his face like "how dare you??" lol. oops.

First appointment is a week from tomorrow! I am assuming I'll have an ultrasound, and I can't wait!! I'll be 7weeks 2 days so we should definitely see a heartbeat! I purchased a fetal doppler, so once the baby gets to be around 12 weeks I should be able to listen at home! anywho, thats all for now!

Pregnant!

So, I am trying to keep this pregnancy a secret, and I am busting at the seams wanting to tell people and blog about it. So I've decided to blog about it, but save the blogs as drafts. When I finally do decided to announce it, I'll post all my bloggings up until then so it's like I blogged from the beginning!!

So anyways, I'm pregnant!! It still feels so surreal to me! I found out on Sep. 20th, a week ago. I had a feeling I was, but didn't want to get my hopes up. I took a dollar store test at 10dpo and got the faintest line ever on it. I ended up taking 3 more that day because I thought that first faint line might have been an evap line. Well, on all 3 there were faint lines. So Monday I picked up a First Response and took it mid-day (couldn't wait!) and sure enough there was a 2nd line. It was faint, but it was there!! So I was ecstatic and drove to DH's work and came in and said, "I just wanted to ask you a question, how do you feel about sharing your birthday?" It took him a second to put it together and had this look of unbelief, shock, and he looked like he got choked up. He said "No way." And I handed him the test to prove it. I am so excited. Everything is going great so far (knock on wood). My first appointment is on Oct 14th, so a little over 2 weeks away. Im nervous about it, and terrified every day that I am going to loose it.

Most of you know I am LDS and I am so blessed for that. My DH gave me a priesthood blessing the night we found out. I was so terrified to loose this one. In the blessing, DH was very in tune with the spirit I think. The one thing that really stuck out to me was that "The timing is right." I have to keep telling myself that over and over again. I really feel like this one is a keeper, but I am trying very hard to have faith!

We've told Cohen already, don't know why really. He will point to my belly and tell me his sister is in there. (haha). He is adorable. He told me we should name his sister Cohen. Today I asked him where the baby is, he points to his stomach and says, "In there." I said, what's your baby's name? He said, Her name's Hungry." LOL. Too hilarious!!

Only a few people know about the pregnancy, mainly my parents, and my 4 closest friends. They are sworn to secrecy. We don't know when we are going to announce it. I think it will be after the 14wk mark, but we will see how things go .

Bitterness and Symtoms

Hey all. Today I am having one of my ranty bitter days. I am trying not to be, but I am. It just puts me in a world of roller coaster emotions when someone I know announces they are pregnant. It really does make me happy and excited- Trust me, I don't wish death on you or anything, I just get kinda bummed for myself. Today yet another person announced they are pregnant with #3. They have been married 3 months longer than DH and I and are already on #3!! I just wanna start on number 2. Is that really so much to ask? Bleh.

And again, I am not mad or unhappy for those preggo people, honestly. I am sooo happy and excited for you and it's not like I don't want you to tell me about it...I do!! I love hearing about preggo people and seeing ultrasound pics. It reminds me what is coming my way... EVENTUALLY. Ugh. I am such a grump about this, and I hate it. I wish there was no bitter side to people announcing they are pregnant, I truely am working on it!

Anyways, as for the update on me... Currently 8dpo. Any symptoms? Who the heck know. There have been months where I swore I had every symptom in the book and turned out I had nada. All I know this time around, is that I ovulated 4 days earlier than usual, but we had several days around that point covered, so the timing should be spot on... The only thing I could call "symptoms" is I have been super tired (could be blamed on the remenants of my mono, or the fact I have a 2.5 year old, or that fact that I am a full time student, or that I just got a job...or all that combined.) and that my boobs are kinda sore. I've heard that the blue lines on them get more prominent when preggers, and last night they looked like roadmaps (sorry if there are any gentlemen reading this, this is a TTC blog, so get over it lol)... so thats cool...but I could attribute the sore boobies to the progesterone cream I have started using twice a day. And my abdomen has felt like a balloon stretched to its limits. right now it doesn't but last night it was so uncomfortably bloated. I'm not complaining though! Oh well, just a few more days and we'll know!!

P.S. If this IS the month, I'll be due right around DH's bday...then I wont have to buy him anything. lol. hehe

progesterone cream

I picked up some progesterone cream at the health store yesterday. I've done some reading about the benefits of natural progesterone, and I thought I would give it a try. This is how it works: As soon as you ovulate, your body starts producing progesterone. This hormone helps to build up the lining of the uterus to make it ideal for implantation. Sometimes women don't have enough progesterone, or too much estrogen and it makes implantation nealry impossible. With taking supplements or using creams, it just helps to supplement your natural progesterone and ensure the lining of the uterus is good for implantation. So after driving all over creation to find some, I found some, bought it and applied. It says to apply it to areas where the circulation is good, like the wrists, neck, throat, inner thighs, feet, etc... or in places where the skin is thin. It absorbs into the subcutaneous layer (how's that for big words?? I learned it in Anat & phys, and now can use it in a sentance! cool huh?) which is basically the fat underneath your skin, and then feeds into the bloodstream, spreading it through your body.

I haven't noticed any affects or changes, but this has only been day 2 of using it, I imagine it will take a little longer if I do experience anything. But, it's not only supposed to help my uterine lining, but it should help balance excessive estrogen and help my cycles regulate, and be less painful, and lessen the affects of PMS (husbands are happy dancing everywhere for that one!) The cream I chose is 22mg of progesterone per dose, which is 1/2tsp. Not too much.

And for those who say, is that safe?? Yes it's safe. It is a natural hormone your body produces. It's generally safe to take while pregnant (though you should consult your doctor) your body in it's 3rd trimester actually produces over 400mg of progesterone a day, so 22mg isn't really a whole lot. While it's not a replacement, it's a supplement.

If you do take it to become pregnant, and you do. DO NOT STOP TAKING IT as it could induce a miscarriage, the sudden drop in progesterone levels (the sudden drop causes your period to start every month.) They advise you continue use until 12 weeks, then slowly taper off the cream. But it is safe to take all pregnacy. Good stuff to know huh?

Anyways, that's whats happening in the TTC world. I ovulated several days earlier than usual the past 2 months. Weird. But we'll see how it goes. I am already 6 DPO! Its going by fast!

For more info on using progesterone cream, just search google about it, there's tons out there!

Hello Friends

Hello friends, sorry I've been MIA for a while, it just doesn't make much sense blogging about TTC when you are trying to get your mind off of it. We've taken a couple months break, and have decided to give it another go... but only for September and October. As a lot of you know I go to school, so we think it would be best to have the baby in between semesters, so we have 2 months where the due date will fall at a good time. So here's hoping we have an easy time this time!!

DH and I have had MANY discussions over the past few months about having another, and DH is mainly worried about financial aspects. He has been overthinking everything, he thought we'd have to move if we had another baby because we only have a 2 bedroom apartment. I told him the beauty of little kids is they can share a room for a while, even if one's a boy and one's a girl.

My son, loves to be around someone at all times. No matter what I am doing, he will follow right behind me and the same with DH. I think he needs a brother or sister to hang out with.

We decided yesterday to start TTC again, and I am just elated! I've been wanting to get back into it for a while, but DH always had a reason not to. I guess maybe he ran out, because he agreed to yesterday, under the 2 month condition.

In other news, I've recieved a scholarship to take a doula training program, and I am super excited about it!! It's got me considering natural childbirth and birthing centers, and I haven't even started the course!! I will start it at the end of the month.

I am looking for jobs in my area, and applied for a CNA job in labor and delivery and would be delieriously happy to get that, but the HR lady said I probably wouldn't get it due to my lack of experience. Grrr. I think I have more experience with pregnancy and women's health than any other CNA. Oh well.

That's it for now.... lets hope this is a good month for TTC!!!