So I went and saw my new OBGYN today. I'd heard great things about him, and that he also has a special interest in fertility. I've wanted to see him for a while, but we just got insurance that he accepts, so I made an appointment as soon as I could! Today was my appointment and I went over my medical history with him, and we lingered on the topic of pregnancy and my 4 miscarriages and he was very surprised that I still had not had any tests done to see what is going on. I told him that my doctor basically would tell me to try to get pregnant and then they would see how my body handled it and he was not thrilled about that.
So he explained to me that new findings show that a 20% of repeat miscarriages are caused by clotting disorders like thrombophilia. Basically a clot forms in the placenta and eventually destroys the pregnancy. He said that since I had a 2nd trimester miscarriage it made it even more likely that this could be a problem for me. So they drew 8 vials of blood today and sent them off to the lab to be tested. If it does happen that I do have a blood clotting disorder, when I do get pregnant I get to take 2 shots a day of a medicine called heparin throughout the entire pregnancy and through postpartum recovery. Not looking forward to that, but if it gets me a baby I'm all for it. And this made me wonder, since I had my son and the only "complication" was mild preeclampsia onset at the end of my pregnancy, why wasn't this possible disorder a problem? He told me that it can not only be genetic, but acquired at later points in life, so I could have acquired it after my son was born, but that gives no explanation to my 2 miscarriages before him. Anyways, we'll know in about 3-5 days the results.
He also told me if I am not pregnant now, than once I start my cycle again to call and schedule an HSG test (Hysterosalpingogram) which is where they inject dye into my uterus and it flows up the fallopian tubes and then they take an x-ray of it. They look for misshapen uterus, blocked tubes, or anything in the uterus like a fibroid, polyp, or scarring that prevents the embryo from properly implanting. He said sometimes the dye that is injected can clear out any blockages in the tubes, remove scar tissue, and basically aid in the process of getting pregnant. I heard it is a little painful and uncomfortable, but the results are usually pretty good- conception wise.
If all those come back normal we'll do a semen analysis, and then he suggests genetic testing to make sure neither of us have any genetic defects that are causing repeat miscarraiges.
Well, HOPEFULLY I am pregnant now, and these things will not be necessary. Well, except for the blood clotting thing, because if they came back positive I'd get on those shots right away.
I am very relieved, even excited at the chance to get some answers. Who knows, they all might come back normal and there's nothing wrong with me, but atleast this will remove any doubt! I am due to test a week from tomorrow and I am going to try with all my might to resist the urge to pee on a stick until then. We shall see! Wish me luck folks!
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Go Green. Or Red. Or Blue...
I'm always looking for a remedy or things to help in the fertility department, and one thing that I was curious about this week was gemstones and their relationship to fertility. For ages gemstones have been known to have healing powers, and meanings. I know that, for instance Citrine is supposed to ward off evil thoughts, Amethyst is supposed to prevent intoxication, and that Garnet is supposed to ensure safe travels (ironic that Noah on the Ark had a garnet inside the ark?). I've seen pieces of jewelry out there labeled as "fertility jewelry" and it sparked my interest. Being a jewelry maker myself, I figured if there was any reality to these gemstones having healing effects, then maybe I could whip myself up a piece and get pregnant! So first I did some research on what stones to use, and I've found several options.
1. One person said that any green stone can help promote fertility. I think in theory the green color symbolizes life, renewal, nature, and so forth. This is lucky for a lot of people because there is a huge variety of green gemstones available. Some good choices are Jade, Emerald, and even garnets and opals.
2. Moonstone is a hormone balancing stone that is associated with feminine energy and brings balance to the menstrual cycle and synchronizes it to that on the moon. You can make a fertility elixir by placing a moon stone in purified water and leaving it outside at night under the moonlight. It should be left outside for at least a couple of hours on a clear night. Remove the stone and use the water as healing elixir by drinking it.I thought this was kind of interesting. Don't know if I'll try it, but it's interesting to say the least! 
3.Carnelian- Boosts fertility, Promotes sexuality and planned reproduction, Stimulates, balances and heals the uterus, ovaries, fallopian tubes, cervix and vagina, Alleviate premenstrual syndrome, irregular cycles and cramps by helping to rebalance reproductive hormones. 
4. Rose Quartz- The stone of love, the first necessary stepping stone to creating a healthy baby. 
5. Pearls – These are the most closely tied gems to fertility. Since oysters are natures aphrodisiac, it would seem that the pearl would also contain some of those properties. Lastly, it is thought that since it requires patience and time to create a pearl, just like the patience and time required to create a baby, is why the pearl is so powerful to fertility
6. Rubies are thought to prevent miscarriages.
When I researched "Gemstone Therapy" it basically calls for programming your gemstones, basically palming them, and stating some kind of mantra like "These gemstones will heal me, and bring me a healthy baby, or pregnancy." Then it says to place the gemstones on your body, near your ovaries, uterus, on your temples, and lay in a dark place and meditate for 15-20 minutes about the outcome you desire. It is supposed to help with all kinds of afflictions, not just infertitily. I would think it's worth a shot.
Also, the shape of the gemstone doesn't necessarily matter, but they suggest round, oval, heart, or egg shaped gemstones to have the best effect.
To purchase your own gemstones, visit your local craft store, like Michaels or JoAnnes. Most gems are available on a string, but you can also purchase individual pendants. Also, two good online stores are www.artbeads.com (free shipping) and www.firemountaingems.com.
There are many places on the web where you can purchase fertility jewelry. I've planned a fertility line to offer on my store and that will be coming soon. For now, I plan to scavage my jewelry box and see what I have that can give me a boost!
1. One person said that any green stone can help promote fertility. I think in theory the green color symbolizes life, renewal, nature, and so forth. This is lucky for a lot of people because there is a huge variety of green gemstones available. Some good choices are Jade, Emerald, and even garnets and opals.
2. Moonstone is a hormone balancing stone that is associated with feminine energy and brings balance to the menstrual cycle and synchronizes it to that on the moon. You can make a fertility elixir by placing a moon stone in purified water and leaving it outside at night under the moonlight. It should be left outside for at least a couple of hours on a clear night. Remove the stone and use the water as healing elixir by drinking it.I thought this was kind of interesting. Don't know if I'll try it, but it's interesting to say the least! 
3.Carnelian- Boosts fertility, Promotes sexuality and planned reproduction, Stimulates, balances and heals the uterus, ovaries, fallopian tubes, cervix and vagina, Alleviate premenstrual syndrome, irregular cycles and cramps by helping to rebalance reproductive hormones. 
4. Rose Quartz- The stone of love, the first necessary stepping stone to creating a healthy baby. 
5. Pearls – These are the most closely tied gems to fertility. Since oysters are natures aphrodisiac, it would seem that the pearl would also contain some of those properties. Lastly, it is thought that since it requires patience and time to create a pearl, just like the patience and time required to create a baby, is why the pearl is so powerful to fertility 
6. Rubies are thought to prevent miscarriages.
When I researched "Gemstone Therapy" it basically calls for programming your gemstones, basically palming them, and stating some kind of mantra like "These gemstones will heal me, and bring me a healthy baby, or pregnancy." Then it says to place the gemstones on your body, near your ovaries, uterus, on your temples, and lay in a dark place and meditate for 15-20 minutes about the outcome you desire. It is supposed to help with all kinds of afflictions, not just infertitily. I would think it's worth a shot.
Also, the shape of the gemstone doesn't necessarily matter, but they suggest round, oval, heart, or egg shaped gemstones to have the best effect.
To purchase your own gemstones, visit your local craft store, like Michaels or JoAnnes. Most gems are available on a string, but you can also purchase individual pendants. Also, two good online stores are www.artbeads.com (free shipping) and www.firemountaingems.com.
There are many places on the web where you can purchase fertility jewelry. I've planned a fertility line to offer on my store and that will be coming soon. For now, I plan to scavage my jewelry box and see what I have that can give me a boost!
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Just a lil' update
Well, either today or tomorrow should be O day. Yay! Then it's another 2ww. This cycle has been kinda bleh for me because of the strep throat, I haven't really cared to much or done anything besides charting my temps. Who knows, maybe the lack of trying will be the key. lol. Anyways, CD 15 today... let's hope we have better luck this month!!
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
King Henry VIII would have no patience for me...
So, there's a show I like to watch called "The Tudors." It's basically the story of Henry VIII's reign and his many wives. He was married to Catherine of Aragon for many years, they had a daughter but after her, she had many miscarriages and still births. Then He married Anne Boelyn, and she has a daughter, Elizabeth, and then has a late miscarriage, which would have been a boy. The king then beheads her- not only because she didn't give him a son, but other reasons too. Then comes Jane Seymore, who dies in childbirth... and the cycle continues.
If I were at court back in that time and Henry married me, he might just have me divorced or beheaded b/c of the difficulty I have to get pregnant and carry a healthy baby. Yep. I guess it's a good thing I was born in 1987 and not the 1500's. haha.
Sorry, just a random thought. Getting over this strep throat just in time for BDing!
If I were at court back in that time and Henry married me, he might just have me divorced or beheaded b/c of the difficulty I have to get pregnant and carry a healthy baby. Yep. I guess it's a good thing I was born in 1987 and not the 1500's. haha.
Sorry, just a random thought. Getting over this strep throat just in time for BDing!
Hello friends. It has been a little bit since I've posted last...mainly because I've been out of town and then dealing with a lovely case of strep throat. The Strep came on so fast! I went to Utah on Friday, drove back on Saturday, and by Saturday night I was feeling "off" and Sunday I hurt everywhere...even my toes ached. It was so miserable. I kinda just laid around the house and slept and my fever rose to 105.5. So Monday I went to the doctor and they confirmed it was strep and gave me some antibiotics, so hopefully I'll be feeling better here really soon. The aches are gone, all that hurts is my throat and my head. Bleh. Thank goodness for my SIL who watched Cohen all day yesterday, that made it possible for me to rest all day. I have atleast 3 days until ovulation so hopefully this will all clear up in time to catch that egg!! Anywho...more bloggage later, I'm still kinda tired.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
A Little Inside Joke
Ok, so I'm a big fan of the show Family Guy. There's an episode where the baby, Stewie, doesn't want his parents to have another baby, so he jumps in this little spaceship thing, shrinks down, and goes into Peter (his Dad's body) to destroy all his sperm. It's really funny. My husband and I like to joke sometimes that our son does the same thing Stewie does in this clip (kill the sperm) because getting pregnant isn't that easy for me. Sorry about the bad quality, this is the only clip I could find.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Baby Spring Fling
So this past weekend was that Baby Spring Fling. I ended up going with my 2 year old and it was kinda an interesting experience. Mostly because I forgot Cohen's stroller and had to keep him from running off the whole time.
But I was thinking this fair was going to be all things baby, and according to the fliers that there would be medical professionals of all types there to get some info and ideas of what you wanted out of childbirth. This fair was just a way for every anti-medicated birth, anti-formula feeding women, anti-doctor, anti-hospital birth person to get together and push their ideas onto others. I didn't leave feeling informed about anything, but I felt bad that I had an induction, an epidural, a hospital birth, and that I did not breastfeed Cohen. Which is odd, because I am not upset about my choices. In fact, I stand behind them 200%.
For these professionals who claim that women should be able to do it unmedicated, and give a shpeal about how women need to stick together and support each other and yada yada yada... making someone feel like crap because they don't think the same way you do is quite hypocritical. They only want you to do what they want you to do. I left this place sorely pissed off because I was looked down on for having an epidural, or for formula feeding my child.
It irritates the crap out of me that people have to stick their noses in my business that way. I brought a freaking baby into this world, he was perfectly healthy, and is smart as a whip and growing. How can anyone look negatively on the way that I chose to do that? It really ticks me off that people dwell way too much on the childbirthing "experience" rather than the point of it all...the child.
Sorry about the rant, it just ticked me off going to this fair and all these women thinking they were better than me because they did everything "the way it was supposed to happen." I bet you if all those women back in the olden days were offered an epidural, I bet you most of them would take it.
Moral of this Blog:
If you want to do it natural, great. If you want to feed your baby bottle or breast, fine. If you want to give birth in tub of water, or a hospital bed, great. Just don't assume that it's the only way to do it and that anyone else who does it differently is selfish or ignorant. Just mind your own business and keep your opinions to yourself.
Thanks for listening. :)
But I was thinking this fair was going to be all things baby, and according to the fliers that there would be medical professionals of all types there to get some info and ideas of what you wanted out of childbirth. This fair was just a way for every anti-medicated birth, anti-formula feeding women, anti-doctor, anti-hospital birth person to get together and push their ideas onto others. I didn't leave feeling informed about anything, but I felt bad that I had an induction, an epidural, a hospital birth, and that I did not breastfeed Cohen. Which is odd, because I am not upset about my choices. In fact, I stand behind them 200%.
For these professionals who claim that women should be able to do it unmedicated, and give a shpeal about how women need to stick together and support each other and yada yada yada... making someone feel like crap because they don't think the same way you do is quite hypocritical. They only want you to do what they want you to do. I left this place sorely pissed off because I was looked down on for having an epidural, or for formula feeding my child.
It irritates the crap out of me that people have to stick their noses in my business that way. I brought a freaking baby into this world, he was perfectly healthy, and is smart as a whip and growing. How can anyone look negatively on the way that I chose to do that? It really ticks me off that people dwell way too much on the childbirthing "experience" rather than the point of it all...the child.
Sorry about the rant, it just ticked me off going to this fair and all these women thinking they were better than me because they did everything "the way it was supposed to happen." I bet you if all those women back in the olden days were offered an epidural, I bet you most of them would take it.
Moral of this Blog:
If you want to do it natural, great. If you want to feed your baby bottle or breast, fine. If you want to give birth in tub of water, or a hospital bed, great. Just don't assume that it's the only way to do it and that anyone else who does it differently is selfish or ignorant. Just mind your own business and keep your opinions to yourself.
Thanks for listening. :)
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Friday, April 9, 2010
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
My Son's Birth Story - What Type of Birth do I want?
Ok, remember how I said the 2WW wasn't too bad? Well I lied I guess, because now I am miserable!! I'm 10DPO...that supposedly puts me in testing "timezone" but I am trying with all my might to save any testing till atleast Friday. That's when mother nature's gift is supposed to be delivered. As far as the chart goes, it's still up so that's good news. Now instead of being so excited to go to bed so I can wake up and take my temperatures, I'm dreading it because I do not want to see it drop!! Anyways, on to other thoughts.
I love browsing the web and reading birth stories. I know I'm a birth geek. lol. So anyways, there are a lot of birthing situations that I've seen. I have only attended 2 births, my sons, obviously, and a friends. Those two births were completely different. My sister in law had a natural birth in a birthing center. Another friend had an emergency C-section and she has been scarred by that experience ever since. I know there's no way to plan for what it going to happen, lots of things can happen, but it has made me think about what kind of birth I want. First, I'll share my experience with you.
My son was "due" according to the doctors on Jan 8th. The date rolled around and then passed me by and before I knew it 9 days had passed. The doctors were seeing me every other day to check my progress and see why labor hadn't started yet, and they also did some stress tests on the baby to make sure he was ok. And he was. One morning, I was supposed to go into the doctors at 9am, but I got a phone call from one of the doctors there and she asked me to come in. Funny thing, a coworker at the jewelry store happened to be one of her nurses too, and she talked to this doctor about my overdue-ness, and she decided to bring me in. So I show up and she said she was worried he'd passed or would soon pass a bowel movement in the amniotic fluid and she suggested they induce. She said I could wait until Monday (3 days away) because my doctor was on call starting Monday. Or, she said she could do it today, since she was on call until midnight. I asked her who was on call after midnight, and she said the name of the doctor I refuse to be seen by. So, I chose to be induced, mainly because I didn't want to risk going into labor while he was on call. So, we headed over to the hospital and I got checked in, placed into a gown, and got into the bed, it was about 10am by the time I got situated..
They wanted to put a pill called Cytotec (I believe) via vaginal suppository to get my contractions going, but once they hooked me up to the monitor I was already having significant contractions, I just couldn't feel them. So they nixed the Cytotech and started me on a low dose of pitocen. It wasn't bad at all. They would come in an up the pit every hour or so, and I could feel the pressure intensifying, but it didn't hurt. I was kinda bored, and hungry, and just hung out waiting to progress. By 5pm I was only dialated to a 1. So the doctor came in a broke my water, only to find that it was green (He did pass a bowel movement in the amniotic fluid).
So after they broke my water, the contractions started to hurt a lot more. I just curled into a ball and breathed through them as they came. I was checked again around 7 and I was barely at a 3. It was taking forever! I kept asking for an epidural, but they said they'd give it to me once I hit a solid 3. So instead they gave me some Staydol to take the edge off the contractions. It worked a little, made me mostly sleepy, and wore off quickly. After it wore off they came in to give me the epidural (around 10:15ish). I don't remember much of that process, because i was curled up over a pillow trying to get through contraction after contraction. So, I got my epidural in around 10:30pm. It was heavenly...for about 30 minutes. I kept feeling this aching, stabbing pain in my pelvis and I said that the epidural wasn't working. They gave me a little more, but the pain wasn't going away. The nurse came in and checked me, and holy cow I was at 10!
My husband had gone down to the cafeteria after the epi was in because they told him it would be a few more hours. My mother in law went running down the halls looking for him, meanwhile they are bringing in all the tools for delivery, draping the floor with those blue clothes, preparing the infant's bed, I started to cry. They said I wouldn't deliver till tomorrow morning, I wasn't ready yet!! I remember just panicking. My husband rushed into the door and was by my side and I just looked at him freaked out.
The L&D Nurse got me situated to push and said, "Let's do a few practice pushes, and we'll see where we're at." So I beared down and pushed once, and she said "Oh crap, stop stop stop! He's right there, I'm gonna go get the doctor, whatever you do, do NOT push!" (Talk about freaking me out!!) So I just laid there trying not to push even though I felt like it. That was awkward. So the doctor came in a few minutes later, and told me that as soon as the baby was out, they were gonna take him over to his little bed thing, and suction him out b/c he had the green amniotic fluid in there. I nodded, and she told me to push. 3 pushes later, my baby was out and rushed over to be suctioned. After they suctioned him, I could hear him crying very strongly, and I was so happy. My husband went over to see the baby while I prepared to deliver the placenta, and it's all kinda a blurr after that point. I only tore in 2 small places, and as they let me sit up again, I remember saying to my mom, "That's it? That wasn't so bad, I could do that again!" My little boy was 7lbs 12 oz, 21 1/2 inches long and absolutely perfect.
Now comparing my birth experience to what I witnessed from my friend's delivery, I had a walk in the park. My epidural was absolutely amazing, I didn't feel much of anything except that knocking around on my pelvis. Hers wore off and she was in tons of pain. It makes me a little nervous for the next time around, because what if mine wears off? I don't know how I would handle the pain.
I do know, that a hospital birth is a must for me. All my experiences in the hospital were good ones, great care was taken of me and my loved ones. I felt very safe surrounded my hundreds of medical professionals, and I felt very safe knowing there was a pediatric staff and NICU right down the hall if my baby needed it. I felt safe knowing that If I needed a c-section, It would be available to me right down the hall. Some people are against medical intervention. I am not one of them. To me, the only thing that's important is that I have a healthy baby at the end. I'm not ripping on anyone who believes different, this is my blog and my opinion. lol. When my friend was in labor, I remember talking to one of the nurses and we were talking about home births. She said, "As many babies as I've had to resuscitate in my job, I would never have a home birth." All I know, is if something happened to my baby during a homebirth, and we couldn't make it to the hospital in time to save his/her life, I would never forgive myself. And I'm not saying things never happen at a hospital, they do, but I just feel safer with professionals at my side.
I've seen videos about hospital trama to the infants, and the doctors yanking on the baby and stuff...Well I plan to discuss that with my doctor when I choose her... tell her my fears and concerns and see how she handles it. I even think I'll have a mirror to watch what she is doing down there, and I will not hesitate to have my husband or myself, put the doctor in check. I think if I have a provider I trust, then it should be smooth sailing. Just my opinion. Everyone is entitled, and this is mine.
Anyways, sorry so long. But did you know I didn't think about TTC during this whole post?!? Yay me! lol
I love browsing the web and reading birth stories. I know I'm a birth geek. lol. So anyways, there are a lot of birthing situations that I've seen. I have only attended 2 births, my sons, obviously, and a friends. Those two births were completely different. My sister in law had a natural birth in a birthing center. Another friend had an emergency C-section and she has been scarred by that experience ever since. I know there's no way to plan for what it going to happen, lots of things can happen, but it has made me think about what kind of birth I want. First, I'll share my experience with you.
My son was "due" according to the doctors on Jan 8th. The date rolled around and then passed me by and before I knew it 9 days had passed. The doctors were seeing me every other day to check my progress and see why labor hadn't started yet, and they also did some stress tests on the baby to make sure he was ok. And he was. One morning, I was supposed to go into the doctors at 9am, but I got a phone call from one of the doctors there and she asked me to come in. Funny thing, a coworker at the jewelry store happened to be one of her nurses too, and she talked to this doctor about my overdue-ness, and she decided to bring me in. So I show up and she said she was worried he'd passed or would soon pass a bowel movement in the amniotic fluid and she suggested they induce. She said I could wait until Monday (3 days away) because my doctor was on call starting Monday. Or, she said she could do it today, since she was on call until midnight. I asked her who was on call after midnight, and she said the name of the doctor I refuse to be seen by. So, I chose to be induced, mainly because I didn't want to risk going into labor while he was on call. So, we headed over to the hospital and I got checked in, placed into a gown, and got into the bed, it was about 10am by the time I got situated..
They wanted to put a pill called Cytotec (I believe) via vaginal suppository to get my contractions going, but once they hooked me up to the monitor I was already having significant contractions, I just couldn't feel them. So they nixed the Cytotech and started me on a low dose of pitocen. It wasn't bad at all. They would come in an up the pit every hour or so, and I could feel the pressure intensifying, but it didn't hurt. I was kinda bored, and hungry, and just hung out waiting to progress. By 5pm I was only dialated to a 1. So the doctor came in a broke my water, only to find that it was green (He did pass a bowel movement in the amniotic fluid).
So after they broke my water, the contractions started to hurt a lot more. I just curled into a ball and breathed through them as they came. I was checked again around 7 and I was barely at a 3. It was taking forever! I kept asking for an epidural, but they said they'd give it to me once I hit a solid 3. So instead they gave me some Staydol to take the edge off the contractions. It worked a little, made me mostly sleepy, and wore off quickly. After it wore off they came in to give me the epidural (around 10:15ish). I don't remember much of that process, because i was curled up over a pillow trying to get through contraction after contraction. So, I got my epidural in around 10:30pm. It was heavenly...for about 30 minutes. I kept feeling this aching, stabbing pain in my pelvis and I said that the epidural wasn't working. They gave me a little more, but the pain wasn't going away. The nurse came in and checked me, and holy cow I was at 10!
My husband had gone down to the cafeteria after the epi was in because they told him it would be a few more hours. My mother in law went running down the halls looking for him, meanwhile they are bringing in all the tools for delivery, draping the floor with those blue clothes, preparing the infant's bed, I started to cry. They said I wouldn't deliver till tomorrow morning, I wasn't ready yet!! I remember just panicking. My husband rushed into the door and was by my side and I just looked at him freaked out.
The L&D Nurse got me situated to push and said, "Let's do a few practice pushes, and we'll see where we're at." So I beared down and pushed once, and she said "Oh crap, stop stop stop! He's right there, I'm gonna go get the doctor, whatever you do, do NOT push!" (Talk about freaking me out!!) So I just laid there trying not to push even though I felt like it. That was awkward. So the doctor came in a few minutes later, and told me that as soon as the baby was out, they were gonna take him over to his little bed thing, and suction him out b/c he had the green amniotic fluid in there. I nodded, and she told me to push. 3 pushes later, my baby was out and rushed over to be suctioned. After they suctioned him, I could hear him crying very strongly, and I was so happy. My husband went over to see the baby while I prepared to deliver the placenta, and it's all kinda a blurr after that point. I only tore in 2 small places, and as they let me sit up again, I remember saying to my mom, "That's it? That wasn't so bad, I could do that again!" My little boy was 7lbs 12 oz, 21 1/2 inches long and absolutely perfect.
Now comparing my birth experience to what I witnessed from my friend's delivery, I had a walk in the park. My epidural was absolutely amazing, I didn't feel much of anything except that knocking around on my pelvis. Hers wore off and she was in tons of pain. It makes me a little nervous for the next time around, because what if mine wears off? I don't know how I would handle the pain.
I do know, that a hospital birth is a must for me. All my experiences in the hospital were good ones, great care was taken of me and my loved ones. I felt very safe surrounded my hundreds of medical professionals, and I felt very safe knowing there was a pediatric staff and NICU right down the hall if my baby needed it. I felt safe knowing that If I needed a c-section, It would be available to me right down the hall. Some people are against medical intervention. I am not one of them. To me, the only thing that's important is that I have a healthy baby at the end. I'm not ripping on anyone who believes different, this is my blog and my opinion. lol. When my friend was in labor, I remember talking to one of the nurses and we were talking about home births. She said, "As many babies as I've had to resuscitate in my job, I would never have a home birth." All I know, is if something happened to my baby during a homebirth, and we couldn't make it to the hospital in time to save his/her life, I would never forgive myself. And I'm not saying things never happen at a hospital, they do, but I just feel safer with professionals at my side.
I've seen videos about hospital trama to the infants, and the doctors yanking on the baby and stuff...Well I plan to discuss that with my doctor when I choose her... tell her my fears and concerns and see how she handles it. I even think I'll have a mirror to watch what she is doing down there, and I will not hesitate to have my husband or myself, put the doctor in check. I think if I have a provider I trust, then it should be smooth sailing. Just my opinion. Everyone is entitled, and this is mine.
Anyways, sorry so long. But did you know I didn't think about TTC during this whole post?!? Yay me! lol
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Dreams
Man, as if I don't think about having a baby enough during the day, the thoughts have to continue to bother me while I'm sleeping! I think every night this week I've had some kind of being pregnant dream, or taking a test dream, a miscarriage dream, or an infertility dream. Seriously, and they are so real!
Just last night I had 2 dreams. The first one, I was taking a pregnancy test and it immediately was positive. I was going to go show it to my mom and it blew out of my hand and I went running after it. And for some reason there were no more pregnancy tests to be bought, so no one would believe me that I was pregnant. Weird. LOL. Then, at some point I woke up and went back to sleep.
The next dream I had was me trying to take my temperatures but my thermometer wouldn't go above 95 degrees. I swore up and down that I was pregnant but every test I took came up with an invalid result. Talk about frustrating!!
I woke up this morning sort of discouraged. I had no luck in my dreams and then I got to take my temperature for real and it's still high, but I'd like it to be higher. I really wish I could dream about something else!! I just feel so overwhelmed and even obsessed, and I really am trying NOT to be. As soon as a thought creeps into my mind I push it out, I'd go crazy if I didn't.
But being discouraged this morning brought out my ranty feelings that I try to suppress. I know I shouldn't feel like I am owed anything in this life, but I can't help but feel like it's my time to get what we've been trying for and praying for for 14 months now! I know it's wrong to be jealous of others who have what I want, but it makes me crazy to hear "We weren't even trying" or "All he has to do is look at me and I get pregnant." I feel like I have made every right choice I possibly could with my life, and that I've got my ducks in a row financially and with health insurance... My heart has so much room left to love another baby or several babies, and it is so hard having to deal with this struggle. It really is. Ugh. Sorry guys, just ranting a little.
And if you are one of those who got pregnant first try or on accident and you think I'm being rude or spiteful, I'm really not. I just hate how SOME people take their ability and gift of getting and staying pregnant for granted. I would totally wish for all the morning sickness in the world, the dry hair, the weight gain, the uncomfortable-ness, I'd take it all and never complain because it is literally a miracle that you are pregnant. I will never take it for granted.
Anyways, that's my 9DPO rant. Thanks for bearing with me! :)
Monday, April 5, 2010
Changes to our hospital baby wing
I was looking on the one of the local hospital's websites for a CPR class, and I found an article about the renovating and new construction that's going on at the hospital in the mother and baby department! I was really excited about this, don't ask me why! :)
Eastern Idaho Regional Medical Center (EIRMC) was where my son was born. It was not my hospital of choice, since I had heard many horror stories of people contracting infections and such while in the hospital. Anyways, I ultimately made the decision to be induced there, mainly because of my fear of going into labor while the doctor I strongly disliked was on call. Anyways, it was a great experience at EIRMC. Everyone was great, and I thought it was a good environment to have a baby, and I felt safe. I do have to say it was much older than the hospital I had originally chosen to deliver, and it was a little smaller.
This new plan for EIRMC is adding on 24,000 sqft to the mother and baby unit, including revamping the NICU (Newborn Intensive care unit) so that it is the most technologically advanced in Eastern Idaho. There are a shocking 16 babies on average in the EIRMC NICU and it's only supposed to accomidate for half that. So, it will be bigger and better, and that brings good news to women who need a NICU, the chances of them having to have their babies lifelighted to Utah are way less. They also plan to add on 10 more labor and delivery rooms and remodel all the current rooms. It is supposed to take approx. 20 months starting this spring.
I don't know it it will close down that part of the hospital during remodel or not...there is another hospital right across the street, but their labor and delivery area is always full to the brim. Hmm. We shall see. Anywho, that was just exciting to me that they're revamping that stuff. EIRMC has gotten kinda a bad rep for things, but I think they do an excellent job, and they are more reasonably priced than many others in the area. I give it 4 stars! ****
How to tell the Daddy-To-Be ideas
Ok. 8 DPO today... nothing different as far as how I am feeling. But here's my blog idea for the day.
How to Tell the Daddy to be, that he's a Daddy to be:
This is something that requires some patience and creativity. I have absolutely none of the former. Everytime I've gotten a Positive test (note, I've had 5 of them), I've been too excited to keep it a secret from the hubby. When I found out last June I was expecting, I was taking advantage of the fact my hubby was taking the dog out, so i had about 3 minutes to pee on a stick, so I did and as soon as he came in the front door, "pregnant" popped up on the screen and I grabbed it and basically shoved it in his face with excitement. LOL. But, I am determined, when I do get a BFP, to keep it to myself for as long as it takes to get this idea done:
When I get a BFP, I am going to drive to IF when the hubby working, and fill his car with pink and blue balloons. In 1 balloon, I'll stick the PG Test inside it and write "POP ME" on it. I'll mix it in with the other balloons. Then, I'll get some of that car window paint and write on his windows telling him to pop all the balloons to find a surprise. Eventually, he'll find the test.
Isn't that a fun idea? I just hope I'll be able to contain myself long enough to accomplish it! LOL.
But, I may be getting ahead of myself... I still have no inkling of whether or not I am or not, but isn't that a fun idea?
Other ideas I've heard and considered are:
1. Writing "Hi Daddy" on your belly and finding some way to expose it to the hubby.
2. Getting Cohen a "I'm gonna be a big brother" shirt and have him wear it around Daddy.
3. Wrapping the test up and call it an early b-day, christmas, v-day present...
4. Just writing it on his car windows.
What are some other ideas?
How to Tell the Daddy to be, that he's a Daddy to be:
This is something that requires some patience and creativity. I have absolutely none of the former. Everytime I've gotten a Positive test (note, I've had 5 of them), I've been too excited to keep it a secret from the hubby. When I found out last June I was expecting, I was taking advantage of the fact my hubby was taking the dog out, so i had about 3 minutes to pee on a stick, so I did and as soon as he came in the front door, "pregnant" popped up on the screen and I grabbed it and basically shoved it in his face with excitement. LOL. But, I am determined, when I do get a BFP, to keep it to myself for as long as it takes to get this idea done:
When I get a BFP, I am going to drive to IF when the hubby working, and fill his car with pink and blue balloons. In 1 balloon, I'll stick the PG Test inside it and write "POP ME" on it. I'll mix it in with the other balloons. Then, I'll get some of that car window paint and write on his windows telling him to pop all the balloons to find a surprise. Eventually, he'll find the test.
Isn't that a fun idea? I just hope I'll be able to contain myself long enough to accomplish it! LOL.
But, I may be getting ahead of myself... I still have no inkling of whether or not I am or not, but isn't that a fun idea?
Other ideas I've heard and considered are:
1. Writing "Hi Daddy" on your belly and finding some way to expose it to the hubby.
2. Getting Cohen a "I'm gonna be a big brother" shirt and have him wear it around Daddy.
3. Wrapping the test up and call it an early b-day, christmas, v-day present...
4. Just writing it on his car windows.
What are some other ideas?
Saturday, April 3, 2010
6 DPO
Hey guys. I went through some issues with my chart, it says I ovulated on day 17, when I'm pretty sure it was on CD16...so I found out how to adjust my chart and things should be correct now. That means I'm 6 DPO today. I've read everywhere that the egg will usually implant around day 6-10...and I've been having some cramping today, so maybe that's a good sign? Temps are still up, and I spent some time today dry-heaving over the toilet because my lunch did not sit well with me almost as soon as I ate it. Probably too early for any real symptoms, but I'm crossing my fingers! Not obsessing about it all yet, and that's good. I am trying to keep my mind off it all so the TWW goes by faster. Anyways, that's about it for today... I think I'm gonna go! TTYL!
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